//Even though people apologized to me about what happened, I still feel like major shit. I don’t care who was lying or who had the wrong information. What’s said was said and none can be taken back. That night, I honestly felt like crying because that’s how fucking bad I felt. That’s how much of a good concious I have. Getting told that a bunch of strangers, WHO DON’T EVEN KNOW ME, strongly dislike me, really bothered me. Just because one of your friends complain about someone or is bothered because she thinks someone is ignoring her doesn’t mean you have to automatically dislike that person she’s complaining about. Unless that person is causing verbal/physical harm, you have no right to dislike anybody. You need to stay out of it. It does not concern you at all.
I didn’t tell anybody, but I was thinking about leaving for a while… And I’m still thinking about it. I’m getting told it wasn’t my fault and for me to not feel bad, but I do. I was still involved because somebody doesn’t think age always matters when in most cases, it does. It does matter when you’re 18+ since oh, YOU’RE CONSIDERED AN ADULT BY THEN.
Some words I can’t get out of my head.. “Well, it just seems like ever since he’s been talking to you, he’s been ignoring her”.. “And right now, people don’t like you, I guess”.. The second quote bothered me the most. Like most people, I don’t like getting told that I’m not liked. Just makes me think twice as bad about myself.. Makes me more.. Unhappy with myself than I already was.. It also gave me another reason to believe that something is wrong with me..
I was still part of what happened.. And I don’t know if me leaving for a while will help or not, but I’m still taking it into consideration..
Are you like.. Complimenting me or being a dork? But thank you.
Babe, Al just took your knife.. I suggest you get that back, the little sneak. She’s my best friend, so go easy on her.
That’s my bud! You tell ‘em, Al.
((I love this :3))